Cold

Here’s my first crack at writing something serious. I don’t know quite yet if there’ll be something to follow this little story, obviously incomplete. Enjoy!

Cold. It was an eerie feeling, like icy fingers were running across her temples. This feeling she had encountered before, when….

“No, I need to snap out of it. Memories can be deadly in these far reaches,” the young draenei thought, moving closer to the fire. The flames had melted the snow for almost one foot around the setting but couldn’t do more against the winds of Northrend, constantly shifting direction. “It’s fitting. The scourge, with its for ever bolstered numbers, is always fighting us back to our outposts, like the wind does with my fire.”

She hated guard duty but when her number came up she had to grab her mace and shield and conform. “It’s not like anything ever happens here, it’s the safest place to be except for base camp,” she uttered as the chills went down her spine again. “This place… I feel it strange to touch,” she frowned, grabbing a handful of snow off of the ground. “What did the Sarge say? That I’ll love it here? I don’t.”

Valani looked around her for the hundredth time since she started guard duty. It was a shallow cave she had set up in, overlooking a valley surrounded by steep cliffs “The angle prevents the walls from being climbed and the narrowness makes it ideal for an ambush”. She was on the eastern cliff, the mouth of the cave very well hidden from suspicious eyes by a huge rock that seemed to have been cleft in half by a giant axe. Part of it was lying on the ground almost blocking access to the post and the other half stood tall and prevented anyone coming from the north from seeing the fire. Luckily the base was to the south so it was safe.

The war against the scourge was very difficult to fight. Loosing a comrade, a friend to this war was hard enough but having to see him rise from the dead to come kill you made it almost impossible to bear. It did toughen up everybody on this front and made friendships mean a lot more than drinking together and relying on another to swoop down to your aid. Not once did Valani see and hear oaths being taken that should one fall the other would make sure he did not rise again.

Swinging the hammer to crush the skull of somebody you knew and maybe liked the previous day took its toll on the troops’ though. Screams could be heard every night, the nightmares haunted everybody and spirits were undeniably low. Nobody knew if the bad dreams would ever stop. Some didn’t want them to. Those were the ones who had fought in the war against the Horde, who got a feeling of the glory. After the second war they had helped rebuild and then hired themselves as mercenaries. They had no choice, there aren’t many who would hire a soldier in times of peace. Fighting was all they knew because it had to be so when fighting the savage Old Horde. Children had taken up arms and learned how to thrust with a sword or impale with a polearm before they had a chance to learn how to write or were old enough to be left alone with a plow and handle it. They had entered the war scared and rose from it scarred but with a fearlessness hard to come by otherwise. They had survived. They had won over warriors twice or thrice their size and had a taste of glory.

Most of them died in the first battle against the scourge. The stories about the first and second wars against the Horde were now sung by bards and although one could still see the destruction that had come to the land in some remote parts of Azeroth, it was not as fresh a wound as it used to be.

The rest had to kill them again the second day, when the battle resumed. This was not something they wanted to forget lightly even though chances were they would not make it out of this war alive anyway. Children were drafted again and given a crash course in wielding weapons, children such as Valani. She barely remembered Draenor in all of its splendor before the orcs found the lust for blood and ravaged it. She was among the few who had survived the trip on the Exodar and made it to Azeroth and as soon as she could pick a sword up she did and began training with her father. Looking back to it, she knew that it wasn’t her true call, to be a warrior, but the wounds her father had suffered in the battle for Shattrath left him empty on the inside. The young draenei just wanted to see her father happy once more so she asked him to train her. He was not pleased by this and insisted that she think long and hard before going down this road. Her youth made the decision for her.

The training was rough. Valenthos, once proud Vindicator (?), did not show mercy for his own flesh and blood and hounded her with military exercises for over a year before he allowed her to even be in the same room with all the weapons he had brought along. It was for the better, she had to admit it even though at the time she was furious with him. Now she had the strength to hold a two handed sword and not feel its heaviness bring her down after a couple of moments. Valani remembered how after the initial couple of days of immaginary thrusts and parries that Valenthos allowed her he sat her down and presented the pros and cons of each weapon, what sword, if choice is given, to choose over another and why. This was the second year of her training.

She did not recall much of the third and last year, or better said, she did not know when it passed. Under his careful supervision she learned to wield all of the weapons in her father’s arsenal and moved from training dummies to sparring with some of his old friends that were still in strength. At first they made short work of her and had her kneeling within seconds of the fight starting. She will never forget what Valenthos said after the first time she hit the dirt.

He took her aside after Kalenthis left and sat her down.

“Do you know why he won?” he asked in a soft tone.
“Because I tripped,” she replied, tears still in her voice.
“No, Valani. You lost because you wanted to win. It may sound strange to you now, it did when my father first said this to me, but winning is not about sport. Not with war. It’s not about showing your opponent who is stronger or faster. You have to prove to him that you are smarter. Fights happen. Wars happen. What pitches you against another is almost never something of your choosing. What drives the both of you at each others’ throats is the will to live, knowing that only one of you can see sunlight again. You have to wait and be prepared for him.”
“So what you have taught me until now..”
“Was to make sure that you will be able to take whatever gets thrown your way. You attacked Kalenthis. That was your mistake. He is way too experienced to not know what you were going to do the moment you raised the blade. He was waiting for you to make your first move so he can counter it.”
“And he did.”
“Yes, my daughter, he did. There is no shame in loosing to a veteran like Kalenthis. He will come again. And now that you know what to do you will have a fighting chance.”

The beginings

I realize that the below contents may seem wrong to say the least to some, all is nevertheless true.

So, just to get the first blog post out of the way, I thought i’d make you privy to the kind of e-mails I get on a monthly basis. Word of warning, I may be getting them because I have been hacked once at the begining of December. Helluva time to get hacked too: 3 days after rolling a 99 on the DPS mace in Anub ToC25 (and it being the winning roll)and 2 days after winning the caster (more like healer) shield in Anub ToC10.

And how can you tell that the e-mail is a scam? Well there are a number of things (I have included the full e-mail, not just an excerpt):
For one, there is no part para clientes espa?oles. The second is that they are referred to as espa?noles.
The third is that cute legit-like website they link, which is definitely not the real one (in the lines of worldofwarcraftaccountsecurity). And fourth, Blizzard does not leave two spaces between words – look at the highlighted fields:

English speaking customers: Please refer to the start of this mail
Para los clientes espa?oles: Por favor vayan hasta el fin de este coreo electrónico

An investigation of the World of Warcraft account has produced evidence that the account has been accessed by someone who is not allowed to use it. Now you can bind your mobilephone to your World of Warcraft account for free. This will protect your account from being stolen: I SHALL NOT BE THE CAUSE OF OTHERS BEING HACKED.

Please be sure to review the information below to help prevent future security  issues:
Account compromises are usually the result of the registered player of the account sharing his or her login information or playing on a computer that has a virus.
Please remember that it is your responsibility to keep your login information  confidential. Any account that is registered to your name may not be shared with anyone except for one minor, of whom you are acting as a parent or guardian. You are also responsible for every use of your login information, whether authorized or not.
For your own protection, we encourage you to keep the following security tips in  mind when using any computer on which you play World of Warcraft:
- Keep current with the latest operating system and other software updates.
- Make use of firewall protection if possible.
- Regularly scan for viruses, Trojan files, and key loggers.
- Be wary of “spoof” emails and websites and when downloading new software.

Ok, it does look legit enough if you haven’t been hacked once and aren’t really account security freaked.
I forgot the biggest hint that the email is a scam: Gmail will flag it as such and give you a big-ass warning on a red background. I’m just putting this out there for those that may be using different e-mail providers.

Ok, now a bit of information about the shaman behind the blog: I’m 24, going on 25 (Sound of Music anyone?), I’ve only been playing a shaman for about 2 years now, previous to that I’ve played a rogue aaaaand… oh, the suspense is killing me…..

I’m one of those players that started out on a private server and then moved on to the real deal. /hides
There’s actually a long story behind this. I was originally a Lineage freak, with hours and days on end spent in game. I had a nice group of IRL friends that made the impossible grind look a lot more appealing but then we finished highschool and separated so i slowly waned off of that game and went into hardcore single playing offline due to the fact that I did not have any Internet access where I first lived (away from my hometown). But then I moved and had teh Internets all for myself and after a very short period in which I actually thought that I had seen all the Internet had to offer (funny clips, funny pics, sad pandas, 4chan) I remembered that it was actually fun to play MMOs. I remembered L2 as a bore (farming ToI for 11 SoEs heads in particular… seriously, you need 11 staff heads to make a staff? Seriously?) and thought I’d try WoW, being the huge WoW lore fan that I was (and still am).

I had a friend at that time which in the meantime has moved on to greener pastures IRL and no longer plays that had his own WoW server and I gave it a try. I really liked it, no more farming YAY, or disguised as quests (get me 10 wolf flanks or i’m'a huff and puff and not give you XP). I first leveled a mage because well, they are awesome and turn huge monsters into sheep OMG! Then after I saw how full of bugs and errors the server was (around level 47 I think) in that I was able to get into Caverns of Time and dot the 1 HP mobs that gave me a whooping 2k XP/mob I gave it a second thought.
Another friend was on a different but just as private server that was clearly working better by the looks of it. I rolled a rogue there and he rolled a druid and we leveled together. We had an almost gaysh good time doing that and then, at lvl 70 (this was during TBC) we joined the best guild there was Alliance side. Pretty much all of the abilities were working (not all as intended but again, this was a huge upgrade from what I had experienced before. That is where I learned about diminishing returns (WTF, my Kidney Shot isn’t working every time QQ) and glimpsed into the world of raiding. We raided KZ with all bosses doing what they are supposed to, Gruul, Zul Aman, Tempest Keep, Serpentshrine Cavern but enough about this.

The reason that I moved on to the real WoW was in fact PvP. More exactly an EOTS match, in which I, as one of the best geared (and supposedly most skilled rogues on the server according to /1) decided to do things a little differently. Allow me to elaborate a bit on this. I know you will, coz it’s my blog and I do whatever the hell I want with it.
The action took place just as you get off of the bridge and on route to the Fel base. We had captured the base and were now into flag carrying. To this end 2 priests which I respected enormously (one of which was a warlock’s alt) for what they did during our 25 man raids and I grabbed the flag and were met by a group of 4, a resto shaman, a warrior, a resto drood and a rogue. I was not the one carrying the flag, one of the priests was, and disc at that. I knew that we pretty much had no chance in hell at winning (the shaman was imba and the drood was also a fierce contender for the imba status).

I decided to play decoy so as the priests could score. I swung my cock… err… my swords (Subtlety FTW), KS’d one, blinded another Vanished, KS’d again, Gouged… and on and on. To my surprise I was not dropping but the chaos was more than I could handle and didn’t really check to see why I was not a smear on the purplish floor. Long fight and situation short, one priest healed me until he was OOM, during which time the other one capped the flag and then the OOM priest went for the flag and the other one healed me. We won the day and the match but afterwards, as we were in the same guild, I got a rectal exam size worth of swearing and criticism for playing decoy. In the biggest fit of rage I quit playing on that server and moved on to the good shit – Blizz.

Am I sorry that I played on a private server? Yes and no.
Yes because I know and knew at that time that I was doing something entirely wrong. I was in a financial slump. I know that’s not an excuse.
No because if I hadn’t I wouldn’t be playing WoW today and would have missed out on some of the most exciting and fun moments in my life.
So… would anyone respect a player less for having a background similar to mine? Would this matter if it were true for someone in your guild?

Disclaimer: English is not my first language so at times I may miss a tense or invent a word or five.

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